I read something on tumblr today about letting go and not worrying about the future that really resonated with me. I noted the resonance and moved on, not really thinking about it more. Then a little bit later, I thought I’d check to see what the weather in Oregon was like, since my husband and I were talking about moving there sometime in the future. So I pulled up weather.com and looked up the city we were talking about, then clicked on the averages. But immediately I felt a dissonance and heard “Stop planning” and “Go with the flow.”
So I took a deep breath and sat in the moment. It felt so good.
In that moment I realized that I need to adjust my focus. I feel like focusing on the NOW is what’s most important – like finding healthy recipes that my whole family likes, spending time meditating and making our house a pleasant place to be, learning how to control my temper even when I’m tired, and simplifying our life. When it’s time for us to move, we’ll know it and everything will work out. No stress. No worry.
I think looking at other places to live was more about opening ourselves up to other possibilities rather than getting us in a position where we could plan what we’re gonna do. When it’s time for us to move, it seems like it will be in a westerly direction. Maybe that’s all we need to know right now.
Looking back, I realized that I always seem to be looking toward the future and getting excited about what’s GOING TO HAPPEN. It’s time for me to learn how to enjoy living NOW – where I am in this moment. I think I haven’t done that since I was a kid. I’m not even sure HOW to do it. But I’m gonna learn.
And I’m gonna start right now. 🙂